If I Lose Myself

Don't just give your trust to anyone

They may turn their backs and run

They'll say that you can trust them

When really they want nothing

to do with you

People like that

Don't seem to understand

How we humans work

We look for someone to fall back on

But these dirt walls

Don't hold up at all

What have I done?

I put my trust in everyone

I must be out of my mind

to come back begging for more

I'm hopelessly wondering

this earth searching down to it's core

What can you tell me

To get over this addiction

To have someone by my side

Who just turns out to be an affliction

I hate myself sometimes

There is nothing more that I want to do is hide

You may never know how it hurts

To be left in the dirt

From where yours walls

Have gone and collapsed on top of me

Suffocating...Excruciating,

Pain is what I feel

To know that at one time

This didn't seem real

But now as I lay

Face down in the dirt

Do you feel my pain?

Do you feel the hurt?

You should stay

So I can watch you grieve

Just know that people like you,

They don't deserve to breathe.